decision time

I've decided that life has to go on. Yet, before it comes to the time for me to move on, it shall remain as it is. It's something I can't help it myself.

Selfish me?

Maybe I was selfish all along. All I think about is me, myself and I. I should have put myself in others' shoes and see things from their viewpoints. It doesn't make it any easier for them, to make the decisions they make, to do the things they do. I'm sorry if I made your life harder, more upset or put you in a spot. I know it is pointless to say sorry sometimes but still I'm sorry.

green strikes again. i never realised how jealous i can be. im starting to doubt my mental state of mind. what is this that is going on in my brain. it was never meant to be like this. frustration is the word.

I probably screwed it up again. The choice was between sleepless nights and probably more sleepless nights right? What's there to lose?

I wonder why too. I couldn't find the answers myself.

I'm adept at making the wrong choices. I don't know what's gonna happen. I wished I knew.